I read this quote by Thomas S. Monson today and liked it, "I believe that none of us can conceive the full significance of what Christ did for us in Gethsemane, but I am grateful every day of my life for His atoning sacrifice in our behalf. At the last moment, He could have turned back. But He did not. He passed beneath all things that He might save all things. In doing so, He gave us life beyond this mortal existence. He reclaimed us from the Fall of Adam. To the depths of my very soul, I am grateful to Him. He taught us how to live. He taught us how to die. He secured our salvation."
I thought I understood the atonement before Rowan's death. I didn't. I always thought it was only for repentance. It isn't. His body and soul suffered so He could fully understand what all of our pains and sufferings would be like in this life. Sometimes it seems like it can be easier to heal the body than the spirit. Going through grief necessitates healing of the spirit. Christ is the One that allows healing of the spirit to take place and peace to be felt. I am so grateful for His unselfish sacrifice and love.