I figure it's time that I tell friends and family that I'm pregnant. I think I'll always be reluctant to tell people I'm pregnant because of the perspective I've gained from Rowan's death and from Finn's not so easy beginnings.
I never want to be one of those women who shout it from the roof tops that they're pregnant. First, because you never know what another woman's situation may be. She may have just lost a baby, or maybe she isn't able to get pregnant (reasons why you should also probably never ask when or if a woman is planning on having kids).
Second, you never know what will happen. This baby could die tomorrow for all I know. Maybe that sounds a little pessimistic to some, but if you'd been through what I have, I bet you could see where I'm coming from. I've realized that where childbirth seems to come easy to some, there are many, many others that it doesn't.
Dennen and I feel excitement and hope, but at the same time, we also have feelings of apprehension and doubt. It's almost as if you want to protect yourself by not feeling at all because you don't want to get hurt again.
I'm about 19 weeks right now. Coming up on the half way point! I am due October 8th (but taking in to account my past track record... I'm guessing September sometime). Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers. I'll try to do updates here and there for our family and friends.