Rowan's birthday was on the 28th of February. I can't believe it's been 2 years since she passed away... It's funny how when kids enter your life the time goes by like they've always been there, whereas any other 2, 3, or 4 years of your life seamed insignificant. Being able to talk with others who have recently had a baby die makes me realize part of the reason Rowan died. People need a listening and empathetic ear when they have a child die, and I feel like Rowan has given me that.
We were able to visit her grave and let 2 balloons go for her 2nd birthday. We also put some cute polka dot pin wheels on her grave. It's good to have her grave and feel her little hand-print that we got etched into her grave marker. I also hope that visiting her grave and remembering her are ways for Finn and Margo to recognize the truly important things in this life.
I love this quote from a book I have: "Why are our little children whom we love so tenderly, taken from us? One reason is to impel us to ask this very question; to fill us with a yearning to know; to draw out our very souls in a search for an explanation. Such a search leads us out of this world into a higher one, and discloses to us truths and principles which we must learn if ever we are saved in the kingdom of God. When one of our little ones is taken from us we are made to realize our helplessness, and that there is One in whose hand is held the power of life and death; and we begin to believe in God more than we did before. Faith in God, the principle by which we are saved, is strengthened." - Angel Children